Friday, October 15, 2004
a thought poem
Sad

I'm blind to so much right now. Man, Devin is so cute. I love the way he talks to me and warms me when I'm cold. He's such a nice guy. Jordan is really starting to get under my skin but I won't let him. My parents won't let me go to the Sierra Novice tomorrow to judge because I did't vaccuum the house like I was "supposed" to. They never told me, neither did Cyndi. So, I'm being penalized for their mistake again. I hate that so much. Life is so frustrating. My grades are poor and I am so behind in my chemistry. I need to get ahead somehow. Maybe I should just take a weekend and just do all the work ahead of time so I don't have to do it later. Yeah... Alors, French class is really fun. I'm having a blast and enjoying myself so much. I love it. I'm confused yet not in reality... I pick Devin because he's a great guy and I am attracted to him, and I refuse Jordan for spite and because he's naggy and loves putting me in bad situations. Ugh!!!

ixcrisxi at 11:05:00 PM MDT (Link to this entry)

That really sucks that you didn't get to go to the Sierra Novice! It was pretty fun. Don't worry about the grades; we still have two more months until they "technically" count, and between now and then, I can teach you my effective methods of B.S.ing and getting away with it. Take my advice, it's easier than actually learning, lolz! But seriously, if you need any help with h/w or studying or etc, just call me! And about your whole love triangle you have going on...Jordan seems like a nice person, but not really the right kind of person you need right now, you know? Plus, if you really want to date him, you won't have second thoughts, and he wouldn't be putting you on a guilt trip. That is a DEFINATE red flag right there. Devin is an awesome guy; ta bonne amie, moi (of course! lolz), est tres jolie quand je pense le deux de toi...petit ami? lolz I don't know how to say that in French; I tried! Just don't stress out over it; it's definately not worth it in the long run.Bisous, Stacy

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