Saturday, July 31, 2004
It's over... FOR REAL!
Angry Ayumi Hamasaki - A Song Is Born

Well, it's over for real this time. He e-mailed me and this is what he said:

Cristina,
I hate to have to write this message, but I feel, obviously, that I have to let you know what I'm thinking. First off, sorry it's taken me so long to get back with you; I've been quite busy. As I've wrestled over things in my mind, I've come to the conclusion that really, I'm afraid there's no hope for the relationship at this point. I hear rumors, and no doubt there are other things going on, as you alluded to in your last message, but in the end it comes down to me and you, and I simply don't think it will work anymore. It kills me to have to say this, but as things stand, it's just impossible for a healthy relationship to continue (or start again) after so many strains having been put on it. I think you and I are in different places; I didn't ever use to think that, but that's what the facts all point to these days. I really hoped that it wouldn't come down to this, but I think it's the only choice at this point. I don't know what will happen in the future, and maybe someday we will see more eye-to-eye, but I'm afraid that this is not the case now. You'll always hold a very dear place in my heart, and thank you for all the wonderful times we had together. It's a shame it just couldn't work out.
Collin

Well, I guess I can't argue with that. lolz... So, I cried over it quite a bit. It hurts that he wouldn't talk to me alone much at all before assuming any rumors true. I don't know. It was kind of a relief being set free but that's kinda dumb considering all that Collin and I have been through in these past two years (two years almost). I don't know... I've been moving on slowly by going out with friends and surveying my other opportunities in the guy department. lol That sounds kinda impartial but that's okay for me. It doesn't bother me much at all anymore. It just hurts to think about how much I really did love him and how all that was just thrown away because we couldnt have one simple conversation with eachother.

ixcrisxi at 2:00:00 PM MDT