Monday, November 8, 2004
A Change of Pace...
Happy Octavio Paz - Little Birds (Performed by the Summit Ensemble)

Well, a new day is over with. I got up really early this morning, like around 7 or 8 or something. I automatically went into my bathroom and took a shower. It felt really good so early in the morning after a good night’s rest. I had stayed up a long time with T.J. on the phone. We had a great conversation. It was fun. We talked about the times we hung out this summer and what we should do together when we bring our grades up and can go out again. Sounds fun already, lolz…

Mom let me drive to church today. It was fun. I actually only drove to the Wal-Mart on Palmer Park way up north. The turns and the roundabout and the parking lot is crazy. Lolz… I really need to work on that parking thing, btw. ;) In church, we had our communion service. They dismissed us for our Sunday School lessons. Our teacher was going to be gone that class so the Middle School teacher was coming to teach us this class. He taught us about investing and saving our money, and our lives are affected everyday by what we do today. I was waiting for him to tell us how that had anything to do with God, but I didn’t out of politeness. He eventually said ‘Let us pray.’ But he ended the prayer and said he’d see us next week. Made me kinda angry but oh well… I wanted a lesson. I wanted to learn about God and communion or just sit and read the bible. Ugh!

Devin called me. We talked about Dare to Share and how it went for him and how I should have gone. I totally agree with him on that one! Lolz… Alors, let me tell you about Devin. I haven’t mentioned him much other than I spent time with him at State Fair, we almost went to Homecoming together, and he’s my boyfriend. Lolz… Like most of the new people we meet in life, he’s not immediately easy to talk to. That just takes time. He’s nice and so sweet, though. He understands and just made me feel comfortable with him very quickly. I can trust in him to tell me the truth and give me his honest opinion. He’s funny and smart and very musically talented. I know I’m like bragging on him but he is really all that. He’s such an awesome person. Despite his being younger than me, he’s actually on my level. He’s just such a great guy (and good-looking, too). ;)

I know what I want out of a relationship. Dating is all about finding the one you want to marry and finding out what works and what doesn’t. I learned a lot from dating Collin for about 2 years. Haven’t talked to him much since the drama back in July, but I miss him. He was totally understanding of my moods and what went on inside my head. It was great. I could talk and relate to him. He just made me feel at home. I find now, though, that Devin does this for me too. It just took a little less time than it did with Collin. I’m glad that all is well with Devin and I. I really couldn’t ask for more right now. I mean, he asked my Dad is it’d be all right to date me. Talk about chivalry! He’s so polite and nice.

I’m an old-fashioned person. I’d take flowers and a great conversation over music and good food any day with that special someone. I find that with everything I’ve been blessed with, I’m most thankful for my family and friends. My family because they’ll always be there for me and guide me; my friends because they’ll always give me that extra kick in the butt to help me along. Myra for example did the right thing in telling Collin what had happened because I hadn’t. I intended to but waited too long. He really should’ve known way sooner. I was stupid and I made a huge mistake that cost me three great friends. Myra said she was over what happened earlier. That makes me over-joyed. She was my best friend for the longest time. I could confide in her because I trusted in her so much. Maybe a new friendship can spring anew from our experiences as they were…?

ixcrisxi at 5:17:00 PM MST